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Well, it's been a slow progression toward writing again. I have a lot of ideas for some nerdy fan fiction, the Anita Blake: Vampire Hunter series (stopped reading after Obsidian Butterfly because I feel it went to poop after that). I am a die-hard Anita / Edward fan

I miss being social, haha. It's lame that I'm so introverted. It's not healthy and it makes people so very angry with me. Serves me right. But will I change?

Been thinking about a lot of things lately. Mainly about how badly I need a damn job right now. Definitely hurting in that area right now. Put in so many applications to all sorts of places, kept on their asses a week later to see if they'd even looked at my application, got the run-around. So it's back to applying to more places again to start the cycle over.

I'm kind of scared that I'm not going back to school in the fall. I feel free but bound. It's a strange feeling. It's kind of exciting but not really, since I don't have any money to do anything with. I need to move out of my parents' house, I want to move in with Jeffrey. It's about time for that, really. We both deserve that. We both need it.

I am feeling envious of all the couples that are living together! Yeah, it makes me wishful. Makes me feel sad, too.

We are both hard workers, we will get there sometime. Our time hasn't come yet. But, it will. Yes, this is me reassuring myself. It's my mantra in a way.

Jeff and I walked in the part for 45 minutes today and we both got sunburn on our shoulders and the tops of our backs, lol. He got it worse than I did. I feel bad for him. Mine doesn't hurt much (yet?) and it looks worse than it feels. It isn't even that warm to the touch. His seems very red. He is almost as fair-skinned as I am but he tans well.

I keep trying to think about all the things I take for granted about him. The list is huge because it's basically everything. He is such a beautiful person. Very attractive inside and out *sighs* I miss him something terrible. It's very hard to see him only on the weekends.

I stared into his eyes a lot this weekend. God, they are SO amazing to look into. *feels faint* They're green-blue and so bright they make me feel like I'm in the sea. That is the kind of drowning I pray for *smirks*. Yeah, love makes me cheesy.

This is long because I feel chatty. Feeling really guilty about not posting more. The last thing I posted was pretty personal. Maybe too personal. Had to get it out though.

Maybe I need to write right now. Man, I still see his eyes when I close mine. It's amazing.

Yeah, I need to write. Hopefully it will be post-worthy



Thanks for bothering to read my journal.
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Go to college, check.
Get a job . . . pending.

I hope everyone is doing well I am feeling very accomplished since my graduation. Just hope I can get a job now

I have some stuff started that I'm going to be working on this week. I should start doing thumbnails also.

I am in the process of deleting my old Facebook and MySpace pages and creating new, refreshed, cleaner ones. I never had anything terrible on any of them, I'm not that kind of person in general. I don't have anything bad to even put up there if I wanted to (which I do not).
So, that's a mess. I hate those things but there are handfuls of people I only contact through there, so they are a necessity for me.

*copies writing folder to Desktop*

Eh. I have one thing that's done but it's so nerdy I don't know if I want to post it, lol. I should. Maybe I will tomorrow Should do a thumbnail for it.

Well, I'm going to bed. It's 3:36 A.M. here on the East Coast.


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P.S. I have come to the realization that I keep putting off writing because I am not as good as I once was. This is because I am not the same person I once was. The dark brooding character makes it so easy to write. A lot of things become brighter then.

So I've put off posting anything or even trying to really write because I guess I'm afraid of what I create now. I'm in another phase of Me, so I guess I'm kind of scared to see what that looks like in writing.

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As you may have guessed from the title, I will be in the WCSU graduating class of 2009!!

I will be receiving my Bachelors of Science in Elementary Education with a concentration in English.

As of the next few months, I will become a certified Elementary Education teacher for the state of Connecticut.

It's taken me six long years to get here, but here I am!

Standing short (at 5'3") with eyes forward and a smirk on my face, waiting for Sunday, May 24th, 2009.

:cheers: to hard work and persistence!

I hope the few people that still read this thing () are doing well and that life has been good to them. There will be writing on the way soon I have a lot of stuff I am currently working on. I also have a lot of catching up to do on everyone's galleries. Looking forward to that!!

Quote of my life:
Many stop at the stars to reach their dreams, I will stop at nothing!
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Started Student Teaching today

Got 14/22 names down ^^

Second grade, WOOHOO!!

Kids are hilarious and wonderful and they don't miss a thing!

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How is everyone doing????????????


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P.S. Cupcake tea = Twinings Vanilla Black Tea *drools all over the place*

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Oh man, a lot has happened since I've last been on here.

I have started my Professional Development School experience (PDS) for Elementary Education. So this was the end of my first full week in a classroom.

It's amazing! It's everything I always knew it would be. I really love the kids, they are the reason for my passion to be a professional educator.

Man, things feel great! I am so excited to be in a second grade class, it is wonderful! Those kids are amazing. I am very attached to them already, I knew all their names (21 kids) on the third day and I'm usually bad with names

It's been 4 years for Jeff and I since Nov. 10th It definitely does NOT feel like it's been that long, trust me, lol. We have been through a lot together but it still doesn't feel like 4 years.

My best friend from high school just had a baby boy!!!! That's great news, she really is going to be a wonderful mother. I've told her that for a while now! She has a great head on her shoulders and she is always prepared. I can't wait to see pictures

I teach my first lesson on Monday. Just spent 4 hours on my bulletin board for it, lol. I'm pooped. Doing tons of work this semester but I can almost taste the end of the semester and it feels good.

I love this song. Don't like the rest of her stuff but this one song stands out for me.

Been writing lately but nothing for deviantart, really. More like little musings for myself.

Once the semester is over I should have more time for Dev again WOOHOO!!

Miss all of you

I hope that you are all doing well.


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